Monday, March 24, 2014
Mom, You and I have had so many laughs, so many times, about things that you would tell me to "remember this when I'm gone honey and remember how much we laughed so you won't be sad." I always said, "yep, I sure will!" Well, it isn't going that way yet - I have tried and tried but cannot remember any of those things, but I'm sure some day I will be able to, once I work past the pain. Right now it just hurts so darned much not to have you here, it doesn't even feel real yet. I keep thinking I can dash up the stairs to tell you something, or after I finish cooking dinner I can still holler up at you, "Mom, dinner is ready!" Then the hurt swells up all over again when I remind myself that you are not upstairs in your bedroom. I know I will be alright though - you always told me that I will be and I know that God won't give me more than I can handle. Have to say though, I have never ever in my life known emotional pain like this before. When it feels like too much to feel I think of that massively huge happy face in the back window of the car though and get a tickle that makes me giggle out loud. We will always have our massive happy face! I love you tons, Mama! Enjoy your flight with the angels, and all the beach time and perfect weather you want - for eternity now. *kiss* http://www.youtube.com/watch?v... Love, Your baby girl
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